There are many reasons why we bury pain and fear. But emotions that are buried, never disappear. It began with loss. At 13, I lost friends in car crashes, illness and suicide. I’ve fought against many causes through music: But I never fought for myself. Afraid of imperfection, I let others speak. When my pale skin and freckles drew negative attention I hid the pain. Hurt by love, I built a tall tower and hid away my heart.
While writing this album the past resurfaced, asking for recognition. It’s been a journey of self-discovery, self-acceptance and understanding human behaviour. Failure, pain and anxiety – no longer scare me – I know, they cannot and will not destroy me. Without imperfection, there is no space for growth.
I came home.
Back to my true self.
Yra daug priežasčių, kodėl slepiame savo skausmą ir baimes. Vis dėlto nors ir palaidoti, šie jausmai niekur nedingsta. Viskas prasidėjo nuo kelių netekčių. Būdama 13-os praradau draugus – automobilio avarijose, dėl ligos ir vieną – dėl savižudybės. Dėl visko gyvenime kovojau per muziką, tačiau niekada nekovojau už save. Bijojau savo netobulumo, todėl kalbėti leidau kitiems. Kai dėl šviesios odos ir strazdanų susilaukdavau neigiamo dėmesio, patiriamą skausmą slėpdavau. Kai meilė mane įskaudino, pasistačiau aukštą bokštą ir jame paslėpiau savo širdį.
Bekuriant šį albumą, praeitis sugrįžo ir pareikalavo ją pripažinti. Jis man tapo savęs atradimo, priėmimo ir žmonių elgesio perpratimo kelione. Klaidos, skausmas ir nerimas nebegąsdina – žinau, kad tai manęs nebesugriaus iš vidaus. Visi mūsų netobulumai tik dovanoja galimybę augti.
Aš grįžau namo.
Atgal į save.
Erica Jennings released her music video today for her heartfelt single “Leading Me Home” that’s currently one of this years favourites to win the national selection in Lithuania for The Eurovision Song Contest 2016. The song has also been picked up my numerous radio stations internationally.
The video, written and directed by Laurynas Valkiūnas and Klementas Davidavičius, is based on the poignant greek legend of Orpheus and Eurydice.
“Leading me home” is about rebirth, facing one’s fears, overcoming all odds and finding your true self. Therefore, it’s a beautiful play on the song, that the video deals with the idea of defeating death, whether that death is physical or emotional, through love and light and finding inner peace, something we all need in this day and age,” says Erica.
Orpheus and Eurydice.
Orpheus was madly in love with his wife, a beautiful nymph Eurydice. However, Aristaeus, the God of land and agriculture, became so bewitched by the beauty of the nymph that he started pursuing her. In her attempt to escape Aristaeus, Eurydice fell into a nest of snakes and died from a venomous bite. In his grief, Orpheus played songs. His music enchanted every living thing in the world and could even move rocks. Orpheus traveled to the underworld where his music melted the hearts of Hades and Persephone. He was allowed to take Eurydice back to the upper world, but upon one condition – Orpehus was not to look at his wife as she followed him while they ascended. However, overwhelmed by his feelings, Orpheus forgot his promise and glanced back at Eurydice. And in doing so, he lost his beloved forever.
The myth and motifs taken from the legend for the storyline are certainly emotions we have all lived through. “The journey of finding ourselves, sometimes through the toughest of circumstances, physical or emotional is something we all experience. Understanding our behaviour, being honest with ourselves and finding the courage to follow our hearts – all of that means returning to oneself, to the person we are truly meant to be”.
The “man in black”, seen at the end of the video, could represent many ideas according to Erica. “He could symbolize a lost love or a part of me that I have long been searching for. Perhaps, he’s the discovery of my true path or my courage or my personal growth. The possibilities are endless. And yet, most likely, he is the manifestation of my inner strength and peace.”
Even several days filming out in extreme cold, with nothing but a thin gown from Ana Savicka’s Undress collection and a coat by Egidijus Rainys, could affect Erica’s health. Thanks to a caring production team and plenty of hot tea, she managed to escape any illness post filming. The singer of “Leading Me Home” says that, in the end, a music video is one person or team’s imagery for any particular piece of music. “When listening to any tune, everyone creates their own associations and lets individual experiences or emotions influence their perception of that particular song. That’s the beauty of music”.
Scuare is the young and promising production team behind the music video and had nothing but good things to say about their female lead.
“Erica is truly proficient in front of the camera. She is easy to get along with and a real professional in her field. She also understands that filming is often a very complex and exhausting process. Nevertheless there was plenty of laughter on set,” says Laurynas Mataitis from Scuare.